Almost a year has passed since my life was turned upside down. My little man and I moved out of our home and a unfaithful relationship to find our way again. Now that he is just turned one year old, I have been wondering on where I am, have I made it out of the storm?
I guess I can say I have. I do not cry anymore over the loss. I miss the people that were associated with the relationship, I think that will always remain though. People loved me and then lost me just like I lost them. There is no reason to stop loving them.
The biggest change I think I have encountered in myself is that I have stopped any of the "Pity Parties". I no longer sit on the floor with my Helmet of Hopelessness, crying my eyes out. (Thank you Joyce Meyers for that inspirational message). Whenever I feel myself getting down, I remind myself of two very important things. The first is that I have the most beautiful, healthy, handsome little boy in the universe that loves his mommy. Second, God is now leading our path. I have hope and faith that truth will prevail. I am so excited about the future and that excitement helps me know that I am on the right path.
It's nice to finally be on the right path, with great people guiding us and surrounding us. It is so wonderful to live a life of truth instead of lies. I have faced myself, I have faced others and become a better person, a better woman and most importantly a better mother because of it. One day my little man will know of everything about me, everything we went through together and now I can honestly say, He will be proud of who I became.
I guess the question of "Where am I" is best answered in the second quote. I am now living our life, soaking up every precious moment I have with my boy. At the end of the every day I remind myself of my life, my boy, my friends and my family and then finally I ask myself "Ok, what did you learn today?"
This is a much better place than where I was just one short year ago.
If you are in the middle of the storm, if you are sitting in the corner with your helmet of hopelessness on wondering if the pain, hurt and confusion will ever end. Yes it will. Choose to think differently. Read inspirational quotes, listen to good, honest and uplifting people. Seek out those people that are truly happy and make them part of your life. You can change the way you feel by simply choosing to do so.
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