One of the hardest things I am finding in dealing with an ex is not to participate in the ranting and raving, basically through Text Messaging now. I have to remind myself to stand strong, but stand with dignity and grace. My younger brother sent me a talk where Elder Holland reminded us: Speak the words of an Angel and act as if you were a Angel and nothing else.
I like to remind myself, an Angel is protected, An Angel has Grace. Whatever will happen will happen. But how I handle this situation may help or hinder the process. So today I am chosing no not join in, instead to keep singing a song in my head that my Grandmother loved.
I missed the opportunity to sing this at her funeral because I was to worried about trying to fix an un-fixable relationship. It has been hard to forgive myself for that, however, I know she knows that I was trying to the best for me and what was once my family. I just didn't know that my family had already been ripped apart by someone else. Had I known, I would have much rather stood in the church and sing this song as her praise.
She and my other Grandma are the angels that I learn from and lean on now.
