No need for an escape

I have found that I really need this time alone.  It would be so easy to jump back into a relationship and just "go on with life".  But that would be, just as this quotes says...an escape, one that wouldn't last because quick fixes never really fix anything, they just temporarily make it better. 

I need to face this head on and figure out why I would put myself in a situation where I had to compromise and change the person I really am.  I cannot believe how much of myself I changed, how much I hid and how much I eventually lost, all for something and someone that turned out, wasn't real at all.  In any case, I am getting my true self back and I want to keep her the next time around!

 Before I let anyone into my life again, I want to be able to look in the mirror and say  I am proud of who you are, I am proud that I do not judge people, I have a loving heart, I am loyal person, I am true person and most importantly I am honest person. The next person in my life will know that I have made mistakes, I want to live my life knowing I really have nothing to hide.  I am living my life now so that when my boy wants to start dating, I can tell him of my experiences; I will be able to say "Yes I made mistakes, big ones, but then I realized those mistakes and put pride aside and apologized, "sincerely apologized. 

I heard a song today that really says it all.

"When you've done something wrong, do not just confess, but do your best, to make your wrong a right.