I feel rich

When it comes down to it, family is all that really matters.    Money cannot buy happiness....Yes, it can buy things that may make you temporarily happy, and you can buy others attention....but do you really want someone in your life that you had to "purchase" their attention?  Moral of this story:  Buying someones attention is much different then earning someone's affection and adoration.

My 2nd quote

Since most of you have been reading my post from the beginning you know that I am excited to say I have created a new talent.  I find a quote, or in this case I create a quote that makes me feel the exact opposite of what "life" would like to have me feel.  Whether it is circumstance or just mean people that are bringing you down, focus on simply being  happy and grateful for what you do have.  The next day will be brighter and happier.  In this case I know it will!

Make Someone Else's Day instead of focusing on your own

 Making someone else's day always results in making your own day.  

Try it.  

I bet you smile!

Two really good words

I am preparing myself for a very difficult weekend and beginning of the week.  This year I am spending Christmas Eve and Christmas Day alone while my little one is spending Christmas Eve and Christmas Day with his Big Brother, his father and family.   I love the fact that I am allowed through the grace of a wonderful woman to see the connection between the two of them and watch them really become brothers.  I have been doing a lot of learning and reading about strength and equanimity and ways to keep the calm and peace in  your heart even when the world around you is trying to break you down.  

So while I wait for a few days to pass I will prepare us for a  many days of fun visiting my family!  

Yes it will be difficult

Yes we will make it through it 

Yes it is worth it.

  

Change the way you think about it

It is  completely possible to take a negative situation and turn it into something positive.
I have the ability to turn things around and make myself smile.
Knowing that I can change the way I feel and think about a situation in a moments notice,
is a nice trait to have.

Milestones

I saw this quote last night and immediately said to myself, Hey...Thats NOT me!  It is an amazing feeling to know without a shadow of a doubt that through much regret, sadness, shame, commitment and complete honesty I can say that I will never have to wonder if "that" will ever happen to me again.  I remember so well that small feeling that always snuck into my thoughts, the knowledge of what was coming.    Karma always happens, it has to, it is necessary, because human beings will only change through trials, struggles, humility and perseverance, they do not change from words alone. 

Remind you of anyone?

Ha ha ha ha ha, I saw this picture and immediately smiled. Reminds me of some people.  He he he.

  I have been bombarded with negativity lately and I realized that I was allowing that negativity into my life, just letting it walk right through my door.
So,from now on, whatever it is, email, phone, text, person walking down the street.....Really look at the person it is coming from.  Really look at what type of person it is coming from and then simply decide "negative or positive".  If it's negative, hit the delete button on your phone, text, email or as this quote says "run away".  Let them keep their negativity, after all they are the ones that deserve it!

The truth is simple

Its funny that this post follows my New Years Resolution.  It shows you just how hard the devil will work against you when you start to feel just a bit of encouragement.  Just a few moments ago I received an email from an old friend who wanted me to know all of the lies being said about me.  I know I should be to the point in my life where it just doesn't matter and I am almost there, I will just say that it doesn't hurt as much anymore.

I just keep remembering these lies are not my lies, I am not the one having to live these lies and I do not have to remember these lies.  The people that believe these lies must have never really cared to know me at all.

New Years Resolution

Ha ha ha, love these guys!

Ha ha ha,

I love Calvin and Hobbs, I always have.

My New Years Resolutions! 


1. Trust God.
Action: Study. Learn. Honestly accept that what has happened in our past was meant to happen and what will come in our future is meant to come. Remember each morning when you live in Brightness, bright things find their way to you and miracles happen! So Smile and Live Brightly!

2. Search for the Good in people
Action: Judge less, Forgive and Forget, Help others, Honestly believe that most people are loyal, honest and kind. Surround yourself with Good People.

3. Be the most awesome greatest Mommy in the entire world!
Action: Dance more, smile more, play more, learn more, cook more, work more, sleep more, dream more, teach more. Continue to LOVE my little guy with all my heart, mind and strength!

Where am I today? Moving forward

Almost a year has passed since my life was turned upside down.  My little man and I moved out of our home and a unfaithful relationship to find our way again.  Now that he is just turned one year old, I have been wondering on where I am, have I made it out of the storm?

I guess I can say I have.  I do not cry anymore over the loss.  I miss the people that were associated with the relationship, I think that will always remain though.  People loved me and then lost me just like I lost them.  There is no reason to stop loving them.

The biggest change I think I have encountered in myself is that I have stopped any of the "Pity Parties".  I no longer sit on the floor with my Helmet of Hopelessness, crying my eyes out.  (Thank you Joyce Meyers for that inspirational message).  Whenever I feel myself getting down, I remind myself of two very important things.  The first is that I have the most beautiful, healthy, handsome little boy in the universe that loves his mommy.  Second, God is now leading our path.  I have hope and faith that truth will prevail.  I am so excited about the future and that excitement helps me know that I am on the right path. 

It's nice to finally be on the right path, with great people guiding us and surrounding us.  It is so wonderful to live a life of truth instead of lies.  I have faced myself, I have faced others and become a better person, a better woman and most importantly a better mother because of it.  One day my little man will know of everything about me, everything we went through together and now I can honestly say, He will be proud of who I became.

I guess the question of "Where am I" is best answered in the second quote.  I am now living our life, soaking up every precious moment I have with my boy.  At the end of the every day I remind myself of my life, my boy, my friends and my family and then finally I ask myself "Ok, what did you learn today?"

  This is a much better place than where I was just one short year ago.

If you are in the middle of the storm, if you are sitting in the corner with your helmet of hopelessness on wondering if the pain, hurt and confusion will ever end.  Yes it will.  Choose to think differently.  Read inspirational quotes, listen to good, honest and uplifting people.  Seek out those people that are truly happy and make them part of your life.  You can change the way you feel by simply choosing to do so.  

I don't get sick, I am Mom

Mom's Rock

I am Mom, I don't get sick.
Ok, well maybe I do,
but I ignore it quite well!
This past week has been a tough one.

My little guy is fighting this very mean virus that is going around and to my surprise, I found out this week, I was fighting it too! So, this is my Kudo's to all the Moms out there that have forgotten they were sick too!

 I made myself laugh this week, while testing the thermometer on myself to make sure the fever reading I was getting for my guy was correct, I found out that I had a 102.9 Fever.  I stopped, thought to myself...Self, do you feel sick? Oh, yep...I guess I do.  Oh well, no time for that.  I am Mom and my little guy needs to be held, cuddled, pampered and hydrated.  So sleep all day my little guy and play all night, whatever it takes,.  Whatever makes him feel better.

It always amazes me what I found out I am capable of, just because I became a Mom!

Simply Thankful

Very simply, I am thankful for my life.

 I am SO thankful for my little boy and the opportunity to be his mother.

I am thankful for my family and all the extremely kind people and forgiving people who have helped us over this very difficult year.

I am so thankful for all of my experiences to grow

I am so thankful for the amazing year and the strength that God blessed me with.

I am thankful for ability to be as silly as we want to be!

What a blessing to be a Mommy.  My gratitude journal is full of Thankfulness today.

Moving toward a Better Brighter Future

This is a perfect quote for today.  In the past, I know that I allowed myself to care for someone so much that I would overlook even the basic human "nice" qualities in order to keep yourself in that relationship.  Love is a strong emotion, and it is OK to love, it is OK to hurt over love loss.  What is not OK is to not see the true image in front of you while you are experiencing these emotions.  The past two days have brought up some difficult memories for me and for a few moments I have found myself wandering back into the past.  But I know that the past is definitely not what I want for me and my little guy.

Our future is so much brighter than the past.

Some of the memories of the past were sweet, and some of the people in my past were as sweet as they come and I am very sad that they are not a part of our lives anymore.  But I can't let my feelings towards them blur the cold hard facts of what has actually happened to us.

You only learn when you can accept what has happened and move on to a better brighter future.

I usually don't like the "Keep Calm" quotes, but this one works  for me!  For a few days now my spirit has been tried and tested.  But today I stand with a firm resolve and commitment to the goals that I believe are best for my little family.  There will always be people trying to stop you from acheiving your goals and there will be people helping you acheive your goals.  Make sure you surround yourself with the people who are helping, not hindering.  It doesn't make you a bad person to let go of negative people, it makes you a smart person.

Stay with the goal

Remember to stay with your goal AND keep your character and integrity while doing it!  It isn't impossible, just a little difficult 

Difficult times? Yes..... giving up.....No!

So here we go again. It was expected and amazingly it seems that it will be a win win for me no matter which way it goes.  Sometimes if you remain quiet a bully will say all he needs to say that actually ends up helping you.  Yes it is hard, but it will all be worth it!  

Your Choice, Hope, Healing, Joy or Darkness

I found this little quote on Hope this morning.  It always amazes me that I never looked at the word HOPE like this.  Hold On Pain Ends.  How true!

Then I found the other quote.  Healing Comes when we CHOOSE to move toward brighter things in our life! Or as my wise sister likes to say "Today, I chose Joy".  

Why wouldn't you "choose joy"?  Maybe it is difficult to let go of all the dark things in your life simply because of fear.  Fear of whats on the horizon.  Yes, sometimes change is scary, but it is a Wonderful Scary!  

I love the fact that day after day, We are building a  Brighter Happier Life and that little nemesis; "change", hoping for "change", working toward "change"  just isn't so scary anymore!

Perfect

My Gratitude Journal starts today!

I was listening to a talk show on the radio last night and the woman was discussing how to brighten up your day, every single day for the rest of your life.  Doesn't that sound interesting?  I really did think to myself, I want to brighten my day and my little guys day every single day for the rest of my life.  So I continued listening....She said, very simply.  Keep a Gratitude Journal.  Every day, every morning and every night take a few moments to write down what you are grateful for.  It can be as deep as the love that me and my little guy share or as light-hearted as someone who helped me out to my car with my little guy and my groceries.

I love this idea, what better way to make sure you smile in the morning and the night than to remind yourself just exactly how blessed you are.

Say A Prayer, Trust in God and Smile

If you knew anything about my situation you would know that there was a time in my life I could have chosen to be where I am wanting to be right now.  I don't consider it a "bad decision" I just consider it a decision that I made without being shown all the facts!  But recently I have learned that I have a really good chance of getting to change our situation!  I honestly believe that this is our chance to do what is right for us!  Positive thinking not only gives you hope, it gives you a smile, it gives your dreams a chance to flow.  In the end, it will all work out.  If it hasn't worked out yet....It isn't the end.

Stand with Grace and Dignity

One of the hardest things I am finding in dealing with an ex is not to participate in the ranting and raving, basically through Text Messaging now.  I have to remind myself to stand strong, but stand with dignity and grace.  My younger brother sent me a talk where Elder Holland reminded us: Speak the words of an Angel and act as if you were a Angel and nothing else.  

I like to remind myself, an Angel is protected, An Angel has Grace.  Whatever will happen will happen.  But how I handle this situation may help or hinder the process.  So today I am chosing no not join in, instead to keep singing a song in my head that my Grandmother loved.  

I missed the opportunity to sing this at her funeral because I was to worried about trying to fix an un-fixable relationship.  It has been hard to forgive myself for that, however, I know she knows that I was trying to the best for me and what was once my family.  I just didn't know that my family had already been ripped apart by someone else.  Had I known, I would have much rather stood in the church and sing this song as her praise.  

She and my other Grandma are the angels that I learn from and lean on now.  

Loner Smile

What a great quote!  

Think about it!  

How often do you sit alone, with yourself and just smile? 

Do you sit around smiling because the blessings that YOU ARE BLESSED with are just that great?

Next time I am alone (Which is every other weekend)  

I will make sure to take the time to smile with myself.

Something great is on the horizon

I've often wondered why I feel like just when I get ahead of things, life takes a turn and I have to fight harder and be stronger.  This quote help me realize that there are great things on the horizon and I have two choices.  I can either give up and surrender to all my trials, or I can fight harder.  I choose to fight harder.

I really want to be part of the something great on the horizon!

Today was a difficult day for me.  One year ago today I clearly remember all  the promises made to me that we're never kept.  I thought about staying home in the comforts of my home and the loving arms of my little guy, but only for a moment.  Then I realized I could do this.  This year I have overcome so many challenges and sadness.  My inner strength is now a force.  I wasn't about to let a memory stop us from moving forward.  So tonight my little guy and me made our own memories and I made promises to him that will be kept.  Change the thought; change your life. 

Moral of the story.  Get up, Get Dressed and Get Going.  Your life will never change unless you have the courage to walk through the doors you are afraid of. 

Smile Smile Smile and then Smile some more

It is so funny how quotes are sent to me by friends at the most consequential time.  I laughed when I read this one.

This is a great quote and most of the time it is tested and proved positive!  Except for yesterday.

I was sitting in my car at a red light and lo and behold my ex drives up next to me.  I know he saw me because he glanced over.  So I do what I always do when I see someone I know...I smiled and waived.  That is just me.  However I didn't get a smile or a wave back.  He looked away with a scowl on his face.  I thought to myself, someone is an unhappy camper.

Moral of the Story.  Smile at people even if they don't smile at you.  Don't let anyone take that smile away.  When you smile, your eyes shine, life shines and your heart feels better.  I know this because my little guys smile makes my life shine every single day.

People may try to knock you down from the outside, but the only person that can knock you down from the inside is yourself.  Smile at yourself, smile at others....Most of the time you will get a smile back and when you don't it will be the non-smiler missing out, not you.

A Double Fortune

Today we stopped for Chinese after swim.  The woman at the counter let my little guy pick our fortune cookie.  When we got home, we ate dinner and then cracked open our cookie.  To our surprise we had two really great fortunes inside the cookie!   

Moral to the story:

Have Patience and in the mean time, help someone who needs help.

Mommy Strong

 I think this is one of the most amazing things about Women, Mothers specifically.  Women constantly get knocked down, get back up and begin again.  I have many  friends who are going through this"beginning again" process, some from failed relationships, some from failed career paths, no matter what their story, all of these women in my life are beginning again and they are doing it beautifully.  I am blessed to have so many inspirational women in my life that I can lean on.  I hope I can be an inspiration to them as well.

Going the Distance

I often wondered why I started training to be a distance runner.  By reading the quote, I just figured out why.  God knew that I would need the strength to endure what I am going through now.  I use my running analogys alot in life.  I tell myself all the time, I have ran 2 marathons....I can handle anything!  This is a great quote that is going up on my wall.  I think I will blow it up into Poster Size.

The Struggle of Change

Today I am finding myself wondering why some days seem more difficult instead of easier.  Don't they always say "Time heals all things?"  In a way time does heal things, but it doesn't change things.  Only I can be the one who makes the change.

I think I found my answer.  Somedays seem harder because they are, because I am constantly learning and growing, everyday becoming an even better woman, a better mother, a better person.  I am changing my character.  Anyone who says they have changed, but doesn't go through the struggle of change, has not changed at all.  They are merely hiding their behavior.

The problem with that is, in time, things that are hidden, are always found.

As I allow myself to learn, grow and become stronger,  I am changing my character and that is a tough storm to make it through.  But I do know that the person I entered the storm as, is an entirely different person that is going through it now and I will be still an entirely different person when I emerge out.

That is what the storm is all about.

Woman with a Vision

Today I needed to post something that got my blood flowing, something that makes me stand just a little taller, something that puts a purpose to my step.

I have now reminded myself that I have a vision for me and my little guy.  I know what we can do, I know what we will do and I know that we will do it together.  No matter what obstacles are thrown in our way we will succeed in our own happiness.

"What If" all your dreams come true

Be Courageous;  It is such a great line to say and such a difficult thing to do.  Fear can overtake a person's spirit so quickly...but only if you allow it too!  I said once before that I started this site because each day Fear sneaks in and I get so scared about the future.  Knowing that ultimately one person will decide a large portion of my life and my little guys life is such a frightening experience.  I can only trust  that this person knows God and listens to God and always remember that I am a daughter of God.

I will stand with Dignity and Strength AND an army of angels beside me (Led by both my Grandmothers).

But today, is not unlike any other; my mind is constantly racing with thoughts of fear, of the "What if's".
So this morning I decided that the "What If's" of my life are always going to be

"What If" Something POSITIVE happens.

The moral of the story is....Why does "What If" always have to come before something negative.  

Why can't  "What If" come right before all your hopes and dreams?

A friend lost

I lost a friend today.  I do know that in a breakup eventually everyone has to choose a side.  But I was so hoping to keep some-kind of relationship with her.  She was a great friend, like a sister to me. Sad Day.

Theme of the Day: Stay Afloat or Sink...Your Choice

 Somethings require all your commitment, all your patience and all your strength just to "get through it".  Remember it is not a sign of weakness to ask for help from others.  It is actually a sign of humility that you know that you are not the superpower in the universe.  Remember even Superman was brought down with Kryptonite and without someone else always picking him up,  he is doomed.

I realized today many people are just hanging out waiting for you to ask for their help. Remember that when you are scared to ask for help or comfort, A good person doesn't like to see another person struggle.  I mean really, what kind of person likes to see another person in pain anyway?

Almost 100% of the time people will be there for you if you are humble enough to ask.

Kick the Devil Goodbye

Wow, this quote was sent to me this morning by a friend that had absolutely no idea what I have been dealing with this week.  Court preceding are beginning for Child Support and Child Custody in my life and for a few hours last night I was discouraged, disheartened and scared.  Then when I awoke bright and early at 5:30 AM to get my guy loaded up for our morning run I looked at my phone and here was his email with this quote.  It's amazing how God works sometimes, there is no way he knew about all of this and yet he still feels the "urge" as he called it to send it to me.  Yes I am scared, not of the outcome, that is in God's hands.  I know that I am prepared, I have been preparing for months for this chance.  I am scared of the unknown I guess.  But most of all I am excited for the opportunity that might be coming our way.

The Devil will always try to knock me down, it is in his nature.  What the devil doesn't understand is that when it comes to me and my guy, I posses an infinate amount of love, happiness, focus, commitment and patience.

Today Choose Bravery, Tomorrow Choose Courage, Wednesday Choose Faith

I have some things coming up in a few days that are going to require a whole lot of bravery.  I am prepared, now is the time that I will remain strong, calm and dignified.  When you do things with good intentions, people take notice.  I will be repeating a few lines I once taught my neice a long time ago.

I am beautiful inside and out, 

I am strong inside and out 

and I can handle anything!